Looking back on my past miscarriages, the emotional stress of ‘keeping the baby’ slowly turned into into fear of premature labour after the 25th week.  More recently though, my concerns are now more directed at labour, birth and the baby’s health at birth.

In general, the negativity hasn’t dissipated, I’ll be honest, but I’m making a concious effort to keep a positive outlook as a handle on my fears.  Every time I feel him wiggling inside my belly I am reassured that he’s still alive, but I have no knowledge of whether he’ll be ‘ok’ or not.  I realise that this train of though is normal for all moms-to-be and is not just limited to those with a history of miscarriage.  Despite this, I am finding myself wishing the time away a bit just so I can KNOW …

At 28 weeks I put together a video log of my pregnancy on YouTube:

My Pregnancy Diary – Part 1

I’m in my 33rd week now and when I’m ready I’ll put together a ‘Part 2’ log.